Today I wanted to talk about something that I have had for more years than I can remember. Depression. I don’t use it as a crutch as some people may do, and I’m not here to judge, you do what you need to do. I live with my depression every day. Some days are better than others, but for the most part I feel about the same. Not exactly sad, but not happy, sometimes numb but mostly blah.
Like many people in this world, I have medication I take, and it’s still a work in progress on getting it to the right levels. As anyone can tell you, one treatment that works for one person, may not work at all for another. I’ve had times in my life that I have not been on medication, and it has not only affected me, but those around me as well.
There have even been dark times, where I have contemplated suicide. The thought of ending it all, was something I longed for, but I knew that it wasn’t the final answer, the one I wanted. Luckily, I spoke up and talked with my doctor and those thoughts may be in the back of my head, but they aren’t something that I’m contemplating at this time. I encourage you, if you have similar thoughts or feelings, reach out to someone, anyone, and talk to them honestly. The world needs you in it.
So currently I am on two types of medications and I try to find ways to keep my spirits up. I read, do crafts, and blog. This blog has been a great influence for me. I enjoy writing to all of you and hopefully sharing some insights as well. Thank you for reading my words.
But know that most people with depression hide it as much as possible. Why might you ask? We know how it feels, and we never want anyone to feel this way, so we hide it and try to make you smile instead. So when you ask us how we are, you will get the answer of “Fine.” You don’t need the burden of what goes on in our heads to weigh you down.
So instead of judging a person who is diagnosed with any type of depression, let them know that you are there and show them you care, by giving them silent company, sit with them while they binge watch TV shows, or making sure they have enough chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream in the freezer. You don’t have to fix them, you don’t have to solve the issues, just by having that one person showing them love and support can make all the difference.
Depression can take on many faces. Not everyone who is sad has depression and not everyone who is happy doesn’t have depression.
Be strong, be beautiful, be you