The Big D

Today I’m going to get a little personal. I have been married for fifteen years. With him for eighteen years. We are now getting a divorce.

It’s not easy. Most days I don’t know what to think, do, say, or how to act. All I know is that it is tiring.

I’m tired of having to watch what I say around my children. I’m tired of having to accept that I was no longer important. I’m tired of doing it all on my own when I should have had a partner next to me.

But, I’m not sorry that it’s happening. We have both agreed that it was for the best. I’m not sorry that we will both be happier apart than unhappy together. I’m not sorry for having the memories. I’m not sorry to be looking forward to my future.

Emotions become expressed and tears will happen, but the life I had and the person I was was not me. She was a shadow of me. And now, now I can rise and be my amazing self.

Watch out world. I’m ready to take you on. 😉