In any relationship there is a level of trust. But as I sit here I wonder what trust means to other people and also what trust means to mean.

To start with I ask myself who do I trust? My family, a few close friends, people that I may hire to do a job for me. But each of these people I have given a different level of trust to.

Some people like family (with few exceptions) I would trust and do trust completely. They are my inner ring reserved for those who are my closest people. The ones who hold my secrets.

Then a few select friends who have earned my trust, this level isn’t as full as the inner ring but these people have earned this level, and I would do anything for them, I may not share the family secrets but they may know where some of the bodies are buried, some of them may even have helped. (Cinnamon Hacksaw this means you)

And then another level of trust being those friends who I know and trust enough at certain things but they wouldn’t be my first call to watch my kids or care for my dog. They have proven themselves but I may still be cautious.

The last level of my trust would be those individuals that I have hired to do a specific job for me. I wouldn’t trust them to be at my home without me, nor would I trust them to do anything outside of that job but I trust their expertise in that area. This is a short lived trust. And if they fail to fulfill their job I wont trust them again.

And then everyone else who may be hoping to be even on that outermost level. But my trust is not easily given, and it may be easier to get a papal blessing than for me to trust you.

So this leads me back to my original thought, what does trust mean? Is trust something that allows a person to speak for you? Or is trust a feeling of honesty? Is trust going to be something that will hurt you later?

Are there words that a person says or doesn’t say that will increase or decrease your level of trust? How do you allow trust to be built? All these questions roll through my head and I try to think of those I trust, those I may not trust as much as those I do not trust at all.

Each person that I think of I could answer these questions differently. And each person I could answer these questions almost the same.

My gut instinct is to not trust people but as I build boundaries and not allow people to continue to dictate my life I am finding more ways to build trust and if they do not like the way I do things, then that’s really all I need to know and they will not ever get past the outer level.

I can’t tell you to trust me but know that I won’t rush you into accepting me, I would love to be friends and be able to build that level with you.

Be strong, be beautiful, be you

Avocado Toast

I am in love with avocado’s. I could add them to most things and eat them at every meal. However the one thing that I absolutely love it avocado toast. This is currently how I enjoy it, but since it is such a basic recipe it can be tailored to your tastes.

  • Avocado Toast
    • Ingredients:
      • Bread – whatever type you enjoy, toasted to your preferred doneness
      • 1 ripe avocado
      • salt and pepper to taste
  • Directions:
    • Toast your bread to your desired doneness.
    • Cut the avocado in half and remove the pit.
    • Mash up as much of the avocado as you like and put onto the bread slices. Personally I use half an avocado per slice. Season as you like it.

Enjoy! Happy Eating!

Baby Theresa

April 29, 2009, a garbage bag was found in the woods near the town of Theresa in Wisconsin. Inside this garbage bag was the body of a newborn baby girl. She was deceased. The autopsy found that “Baby Theresa” was a full-term infant, weighing 8 pounds and 20.5 inches in length. There was no trauma that could have resulted in her death, and no drugs were found in her system. The manner of death was changed from homicide to fetal demise, Baby Theresa was a stillborn child.

Now police were charged with the task of finding her mother or any family. She had been found on a lone road near State Highway 175 and US 41. Residents close to where she was found were not related to her.

Members of the community came forward to support Baby Theresa after she was found. The Lowell Cemetery Association provided a cemetery plot so Baby Theresa could be laid to rest.  Cornerstone Funeral Home and community members donated money and items to make the burial possible. She was laid to rest May 11, 2009.

The State Crime Lab in Madison analyzed the evidence and identified the mother’s DNA. This was run through the national database for felons and sex offenders to look for a match. Unfortunately, there was no results.

The case would go cold.

In 2014, authorities filed a charge against the then-unknown mother’s DNA profile to prevent a six-year statute of limitations for the charges to runout. A Jane Doe warrant for the crime of hiding a corpse had been issued. This would allow authorities to prosecute if/when the mother was found.

In March 2022, authorities cracked the 13-year-old believed to be from her mother helped authorities to find the baby’s mother and charge her with concealing the death of a child.

Karin Luttinen, 45, of Milwaukee, is being accused of abandoning her baby’s body inside a trash bag on the side of a road near the town of Theresa. Police were successfully able to identify Karin Luttinen, and her partner, as the baby’s parents in 2021.

Investigators had spoken with Karin in March of 2021, and she was in denial when she had given birth. She then put the child into a garbage bag and drove “aimlessly” until she found a wooded area where she left the baby.

Luttinen made an initial court appearance March 2022 and posted a $2,500 cash bond. As the case goes through the courts more details may emerge, but as of now there aren’t any further answers to the questions surrounding the case.

Baby Theresa


There are people in this world that if you learned they were a serial killer you would think, that isn’t surprising, they look like one. And then there are others that when you learn they did despicable crimes you are shocked thinking they seemed so wholesome, how could they have done something like that. And that is why they can get away with it for as long as they do. And that brings us to Herb Baumeister.

Herbert was the eldest child and had a relatively normal childhood but during adolescence he began to exhibit some troubling behaviors; anti-social behavior and playing with dead animals, it was also stated that he had urinated on a teacher’s desk. During his teen years he was diagnosed with schizophrenia but did not receive further treatment for it.

Herb attended both Indiana University and Butler University but never graduated from either school. He had a strong work ethic but drifted through a series of jobs. It is noted that his behavior became increasingly bizarre.

In 1971 Herb married Juliana “Julie” Saiter. They would have three children. Julie admitted later that they had been married over 25 years and had only been sexually intimate six times. In 1988, Herb had found the Sav-A-Lot store chain (a total of 2) in the Indianapolis area.

By the early 1990s, investigators with the Marion County Sheriff’s Department and the Indianapolis Police Department began investigating the disappearances of gay men of similar age, height, and weight in the Indianapolis area.

Herb lured his victims by visiting bars and inviting gay men to spend the night with him. He then traveled back to his home where he would kill his victim. Although he was married and had children, his crimes happened at a time in his life when his marriage was supposedly in shambles. There were times when his wife Julie and their three children would leave the property for days, leaving Herb to do as he pleased. He had never admitted he was gay, but Julie suspected due to their non-existent sex life.

Roger Goodlet vanished and besides his family nobody seemed to care. In the early 1990’s a gay man didn’t get much attention from police. Tony Harris was a friend to Roger and was helping the family locate him. He put up missing posters in the gay bars and at one bar he noticed a man staring at the poster and licking his lips.

Gathering his courage, Tony approached the man, intuitively knowing that this man knew something. The man introduced himself as Brian Smart.

Even though he suspected Brian knew something Tony agreed to leave with him, and they eventually arrived at an estate that Brian said belonged to his boss, Fox Hollow Farm.

Fox Hollow Farm Pool

Engaging in sexual activity in the indoor pool, Brian said he especially enjoyed autoerotic asphyxiation and liked to take men to the brink of death, watching their eyes bulge, and their lips crack. Tony was now sure that Brian Smart was killing gay men in the Indianapolis area.

Tony told Brian that he knew he was behind the missing men and that he was going to go to the police. Brian laughed and said nobody would believe him. He had gotten away with it before, why would this instance be any different. Brian said that there was very little effort by the police, mainly because there were no leads. Brian was cocky, but he made a mistake. He didn’t kill Tony.

Tony did contact the police and they attempted to locate the property, or any homes owned by Brian Smart. Tony did see Brian again leaving a bar and Tony followed him and got his license plate number. The police were able to identify the man as Herbert Baumeister.

Police visited Herb at one of his stores and this shook him, heightening their suspicions. When they asked if they could search his property, he refused. The police then went to his wife and told her they were investigating her husband in a homosexual homicide.

Julie was angry and defended her husband, she stated if they wanted to search the property she would give them a tour, just as soon as they presented a search warrant. Police only had circumstantial evidence, and not enough for a warrant.

It wasn’t long after this that Julie and Herb’s life began to crumble. The thrift stores were failing, and Herb was becoming more and more unpredictable, Julie filed for divorce. She wanted answers over the allegations with her husband.

There was a crucial piece of information that Julie had kept from the police but had told her attorney. A few years before this all started, her son had found a skull in their backyard and carried it inside to show his mom. She went outside and found even more bones.

Her attorney contacted police with the information, and they went out to Fox Hollow Farm and were finally able to do a search of the property. There were bones scattered all over the place. The large bones were further back in the woods while the smaller bones were directly behind the house and had been burned.

The search was conducted while Herb was on vacation. It turned up the remains of eleven men, eight of whom were identified.

The eight identified victims were:

  • John Lee Bayer, age 20
  • Richard Douglas Hamilton, age 20
  • Steven S. Hale, age 26
  • Allen Wayne Broussard, age 28
  • Jeffrey A Jones, age 31
  • Manuel Resendez, age 31
  • Roger Allen Goodlet, age 33
  • Michael Frederick Kiern, age 46

The deaths occurred during the spring and summer months only, Herb’s season to kill, mainly because his wife and children would be away from the house at their lake house, and he was all alone. If it wasn’t for Tony Harris taking the chance of leaving the bar with Baumeister, then who knows how long the killing would have continued.

With a warrant out for his arrest, Baumeister fled to Ontario, where he committed suicide by shooting himself in the head. In his suicide note, he described his failing marriage and business as his reason for killing himself. He did not confess to the murders of the men found in his backyard.

Police estimate that Herb Baumeister could have killed up to 27, he told Tony Harris it was closer to 50. Herb Baumeister was also believed to be the I-70 strangler referring to the stretch of highway where the bodies of another 9 men were found during the mid-’80s.

Be strong, make good choices, stay safe

Teresita Basa

This is a solved case, but a mystery still remains. Let’s talk about the mysterious case of Teresita Basa, who in 1977 was murdered.

Teresita Basa was born in 1929 in the Philippines and moved to the United States to study music in the 1960’s. Eventually she would become a respiratory therapist and worked at Edgewater Hospital in Chicago. She was a nice person and rather quiet, the absolute last person anyone would expect to be a victim of a crime.

But, a victim she was, on February 21, 1977 Teresita was found in her apartment. The fire department had been called to put out a fire that had started in her home. At this time they found her nude body under a mattress that had been set on fire. A butcher knife was buried in her chest. It was believed the fire had been started to cover up the murder.

Teresita Basa

As she was found nude it was believed she had been the victim of a sex crime but the autopsy would show she had not been raped. There was no motive for the crime and very little evidence as most was destroyed in the fire. The only thing that was found was a note that said: “Get Theatre Tickets for A.S.”

The police investigated several leads but they didn’t go far. And the identity of A.S. Was still a mystery. It almost seemed as if the case was going to go cold but then a new source of information was discovered. Enter Remy Chua.

Remy was a co-worker of Teresita’s but the two didn’t know each other very well and were not considered close. But shortly after Teresita’s murder Remy began to have visions and nightmares about her.

She began to experience visions in the locker room and she said she would see a man’s face behind Teresita. She would often see this same image in her dreams at night.

Alan Showery

And then one day while speaking to her husband, Remy found she was channeling Teresita’s spirit. Teresita, through Remy, told the story of her murder. She said an orderly named Alan Showery had been helping fix a TV when he had attacked her. He then killed her and set the mattress on top of her before setting it on fire.

The spirit through Remy even have details of some jewelry that had been taken. The spirit stated the jewelry was given to Alan’s girlfriend. Remy’s husband convinced her to tell the police. Of course they were skeptical.

Detectives didn’t know if this information could be believed but checked into Alan and learned he lived near Teresita. Alan was brought in for questioning. When detectives didn’t believe the story, the spoke to his girlfriend and asked if he had given her any jewelry lately. She said that he had.

When the jewelry was inspected by friends and family of Teresita’s, they confirmed that some of it had been hers.

Alan would eventually be convicted of her murder and be sentenced to 14 years in prison. He was released on parole in 1983. He served 4 years only.

The mystery remains, was it Teresita’s spirit that helped solve her case or did Remy Chua know more?

Be strong, be safe, be careful

What makes you feel beautiful?

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and we are all beautiful. One of the things I am trying to accept is that I am beautiful and I am deserving to be treated that way.

We all have our “ugly” days where we feel that we do not look good. But even on those days there is beauty within us.

What makes you feel beautiful? Is it a good hair day? Or your make up is on point? Maybe it’s a killer outfit? Perhaps a compliment that was completely unexpected, but warmly received.

For me to feel beautiful I find that I need to have on make up. My hair will never be my friend but sometimes after it is freshly washed it looks good and makes me feel beautiful.

Lingerie makes me feel beautiful and sexy. Even if under jeans and a tee shirt, I love the contrast of casual and sexy.

But the one thing that makes me feel beautiful is being told I am beautiful. When I hear that it makes me smile, and even if I just woke up and am told this, it makes for a great day.

Whatever makes you feel beautiful, do that as much as you can, you deserve it. The world needs more beauty and less hate.

Be the beauty you want in your life.

Be strong, be beautiful, be you

Ekaterinburg, Ipatiev, and Church on the Blood

For those of you who are familiar with the history of Russia, may understand what this is all about. For those who may not be familiar I will explain.

Yekaterinburg was founded on November 18 1723 and was named after Catherine I. In 1781, Catherine the Great gave Yekaterinburg the status of a district town of Perm Province and built the historical Siberian route through the city.

Eventually Yekaterinburg would forever be remembered as the city where the Tsar was murdered.

Ipatiev House was built in the 1880’s and was owned by Nicholas Ipatiev. In 1917 Nicholas Ipatiev was told to he had two days to vacate the house. After he had vacated, walls were constructed and soon new guests would arrive.

Tsar Nicholas, Tsarina Alexandra Feodorovna, and their five children plus a small staff resided at the house for 78 days. Early on the morning of July 17, 1978 the royal family and staff were taken from their beds and escorted to the basement. They were all executed that night and their bodies were not discovered until the 1970’s.

In 1974, the house was designated a “national monument”; but three years later on September 22, 1977, a team, under orders from the Soviet government and with the direction of Boris Yeltsin, demolished the house.

The Church on Blood is now on the site of the former Ipatiev House and part of the church honors the Romanov family.

Hula Hoop

I caved. I purchased a weighted Hula Hoop to see if it will help trim my waist and help me lose weight too.

This is all over TikTok, YouTube, Facebook and people are giving it great reviews. All you need to do is put the hoop with the weight on it and start to shake your hips.

Thirty minutes of hooping is equal to two miles of running. And some makers of the product guarantee that in a months time you will reduce the hoop by one link or more.

In addition to working out at the gym and changing my nutrition I’m adding this for those days when I may not be able to get to the gym.

If it doesn’t do more than increasing my cardio then it is still a win. And it’s for any fitness level, any body shape.

Have any of you tried this product?? Here’s to hooping.

Homemade Breakfast Sandwiches

I think we have all had egg McMuffins at one time or another, and realize that they aren’t that fabulous. In fact we can make them ourselves and they will taste better, be cheaper, and available without having to get dressed. So here is a guide on making your own breakfast sandwiches, please feel free to adjust to your tastes.

  • Ingredients for 12 sandwiches:
    • 1 Dozen Eggs
    • 12 slices of cheese – we use American
    • 12 English Muffins
    • Butter or Margarine
    • 12 Sausage patties – You can use any flavor, or even bacon, sliced ham, or turkey
    • Parchment paper
  • Directions
  • Hard fry your eggs, season as desired. While the eggs cook toast your English Muffins and butter as desired.
  • If your meat of choice needs to be cooked, cook to desired doneness. Open all cheese and put on the side to create sandwiches.
  • Taking one English Muffin layer other ingredients on the bottom half. I start with meat, then cheese and finally egg. Too with the other half and then wrap the entire sandwich in parchment paper.
  • You can store these in a large Ziploc bag and freeze them until ready to use. Thaw over night or in the microwave.

Happy Eating!!

The Real Michael Myers

Michael Myers is the fictional killer in the Halloween movie franchise who started killing when he was six years old, on Halloween. When Michael returns home on Halloween, he wants to pick up where he left off. But that is just in the movies, right? For a 9-year-old little girl, in 1973 she met her own version of a Halloween Killer. This Wisconsin case is about Lisa Ann French.

Lisa Ann French

**Warning – This case may be too much for some it does contain details of child murder and child rape. Please read with caution. **

In Fond du Lac WI, in 1973 trick or treating wouldn’t begin until it was dark. Then all the kids would prowl the neighborhood in search of tricks or treats. Lisa French was no exception. She was dressed as a hobo that year as it was warmer than the butterfly costume she had wanted to wear. Lisa may have been prowling for candy, but someone was on the prowl for Lisa.

The parents in the area were a block over at a party, and Lisa had planned to go with her friend Ann, but due to Ann misbehaving she was not allowed to go trick or treating that year with Lisa.

Lisa left her house at 6pm, and looked every bit the hobo, she had masking tape on her jeans, a floppy felt hat, a green parka, and a face dotted with painted on freckles. After the party, Lisa had made three stops in the neighborhood, a teacher, a classmate, and Gerald Turner’s house.

Gerald Turner

Gerald and Lisa had been neighbors as they shared a duplex. When Gerald had moved in with his girlfriend, just down the block, Lisa would still stop by and visit him. She would push his baby in a stroller and show him things she had gotten, or even to chat.

Gerald’s girlfriend, Arlene Penn, was going to visit her mother on Halloween night, but after Arlene had returned from the party a block over, Gerald stated he wasn’t feeling well and urged her to go to visit her mother alone.

Lisa arrived after Arlene had left, she had stepped inside, and Gerald led her upstairs to the bedroom, where he removed all her clothing and proceeded to have anal intercourse with her. It is presumed she had died from this.

Arlene would return home unexpectedly as she remembered her mother wouldn’t be home for another hour. Gerald stated several times that he wasn’t feeling well and went to lay down in the bedroom. Had Arlene gone to check on him, she may have seen the lifeless body of the 9-year-old child, Lisa Ann French.

After Arlene had left a second time, Gerald worked quickly to stuff Lisa’s body and clothing into garbage bags and then drove to a more rural area to dump her on the side of the road.

Lisa’s mother was beginning to worry when Lisa didn’t return home by the 7pm curfew. And at 10pm, the search for Lisa had begun. Parents began calling other parents to turn on their lights and put signs in their windows. The police searched all night, and the next day over 5,000 people were looking for Lisa Ann French.

It was two and a half days later when Gerald Braun a farmer was returning home on his tractor and saw two garbage bags on the side of McCabe Road in the town of Taycheedah. The responding officers was quoted as saying, “It was … the worst possible thing that could have happened. I saw that little girl, and I don’t know how any man could do that.”

Lisa French’s funeral

The entire community mourned the loss and in November 1973, her funeral was packed with people to pay their respects to her. Kids from school and her Girl Scouts Troop took up nine rows in the church. Lisa wore a purple and white dress and lay as if she was sleeping in her white casket.

Gerald Turner would be arrested nine months later. He had been questioned since she disappeared and finally confessed to her murder in August 1974. He would state to the jury at his trial that he was tired of the police harassing him and that is why he signed the confession.

In his confession Gerald stated that he was “highly sexually motivated” when he took Lisa to his bedroom. At one point during his attack, he noticed she wasn’t breathing and attempted to revive her, but Arlene had returned home. He placed socks on his hands to move her body into the bathroom.

Police had also collected hair and fiber samples from Gerald Turner and those samples positively matched those on Lisa’s body and clothing. The autopsy listed the cause of death as asphyxiation and stated that the little girl died from the shock during the assault.

Gerald was found guilty of second-degree murder, enticing a child for immoral purposes and acts of sexual perversion. He was sentenced to 38 years and began serving his sentence on February 4, 1975.

Gerald Turner gave the city reason to change the trick or treating hours to daylight hours as he had proved that the bogeyman was real and would also be known as the “Halloween Killer”.

After 17 years and 8 months of his 38-year sentence, Gerald Turner was paroled for good behavior. But he would be returned to prison when it was learned his release date was calculated incorrectly.

Turner’s Law was created that allowed for sex offenders to be committed to a secure treatment center if they come up for parole and are considered a threat to society. Gerald was again up for release in July 1994. It was blocked due to Turner’s Law.

In 1998, he was on trial to see if he needed to be held as a sexual predator. The jury didn’t agree with that description and that he was free to be released. Despite a couple of incidents (he waved a knife and shouted at a caseworker in a Madison group home while he worked as a cook), he was more or less left alone.

Until 2003 when it was discovered that Gerald had violated his parole. Authorities discovered pornographic images on a computer drive as well as sexually explicit videos and magazines. A judge ordered him back to prison for 15 years.

In 2018 the state had filed a petition to keep Gerald committed to a mental facility. As of 2022 the court still has not made a final decision on this matter and Gerald resides at the Sand Ridge Secure Treatment Center in Mauston, WI.

It has been 49 years since Lisa Ann French was murdered, does Gerald Turner now 74, deserve to live the rest of his life as a free man? Or should he remain at the treatment center? I’m willing to believe even if it is the worst place in the state, he is still being treated more humanely than he treated little Lisa French.

Stay Weird Wisconsin